1. Do you drink?
yes, i drink. and i am also an extremely bad drunk. most people drink to their happy point, but if im in the right mood and with the right crowd of people, ill drink until i cant see straight or something comparatively stupid. but whatever. i have so many good memories completely trashed (among them: tessa completely annihilating her hand in a stair railing on new years eve and me laughing hysterically over a bottle of grape uv, smoking a cigarette with ron burgundy at ripon college while dressed like a complete slut, creeping into the attic in a random house and messing around on top of a bunch of dead ladybugs, thanksgiving eve and trying to appear normal to my mom as i crawled on my hands and knees to the couch), its ridiculous.

2. Do you smoke?
i basically chainsmoke. its how i met the majority of the people i love, which is crazy, if you think about it. like, one day, i was smoking outside of pilllars and met this funny, amazing girl named shannon mortl. two years later she is fucking sleeping on my floor every tuesday night and having my baby like the paul anka  song. who knew? but anyway, the point is, i smoke. and i love it. there is something extremely satisfying about driving around at midnight while listening to the roots or ryan adams with the cigarette smoke curling out of the window and into the street.

3. Have you had sex?
i have. haha. i for one lost my vcard to someone ive known since the sixth grade. i was seventeen and it was completely awkward and not the least bit...hot. but whatever. it was a random decision i made (literally at midnight), and im glad i made it; i like that i dont have that stigma of love attached to that person. so now, and for the rest of my life, i can say that it was a truly random experience that, weirdly, taught me so, so, so much. since then ive gone on to "do it" with a few random people who have meant nothing in the long run. and also, since then, ive met a really amazing boy who has made the experience, um, hot, and worth the threat of that stigma. just in case you were wondering, lol.

4. What do you think about God?
i think god exists. lowercase g. i think we were put here by someone but who the hells knows who or what? i have a big problem with organized religion and by extension, the idea of god and the place he should have in someone's life. in fact, im going to go out on a limb here and say that god is basically celestial bacteria and we are all the result of it. still, its hard to avoid questions like, if god is nothing but swirling bacteria then, why do people have near-death experiences? what is a soul? what happens when we die? there are so many questions and at nineteen, almost twenty, my questions have yet to be narrowed down to one. so. god. what a tough question. im sure ill be wrestling with that my entire life. in the meantime, im borrowing from siddharta and allah and the pagans and shiva and god and the greeks and creating my own religion bult around my own experiences, questions, and perceptions. that to me, is god. nevermind all of this other bullshit.


5. What's more important, a job that gets you more money or a job that you enjoy? well, coming from very little money, i would say, get a job that gets you money...so you can do the things th


6. What are your thoughts on love?


7. Are you close to your family?



8. How do you handle conflicts and problems that arise in your life?



9. What are you most passionate about?



10. What is the one thing above all others that you must do before you die?